So much has happened since the last time I posted, and not only has time passed but major events that make the previous posts on this blog feel like a lifetime ago have occurred. I meant to write about all these major events but of course these events got in the way and I never got to write about the experiences. So what am I talking about? Well. in January I found out the "impossible" had happened. I was pregnant. After discussing fertility issues with my partner and deciding to try treatments after our wedding- it happened before we had even announced our engagement; and so in January I became engaged and pregnant. We decided to move up the wedding before the due date since I knew I would want to focus on the baby once he would be here and so the crazy, stressful, memorable, hectic (shall I go on?) wedding planning began. Fast forward to May and the love of my life and I became husband and wife. Fast forward a few more months more and in August we met our little miracle baby.
Anyway, a summary of what has happened in the last 8 months is not the purpose of me blogging again, but it is to share my feelings and experiences that I am now embarking on. Being a wife and a mother was never really in my book. It was just something I never saw myself doing, too busy with future plans that involved school, finishing and getting my dream job. The idea of being a mother went completely out the window when in 2010 my doctor confirmed what I always suspected- I had fertility issues. By then I was with my love and was liking the idea of having a family of my own, just to have that dream pretty much torn down. But I digress- God gave me what I secretly always wanted but publicly and very vocally always denied and rejected. And so now a wife and a mother I encounter what I've never really been good at "real life." I've always been great at being a student, a book-learner, but always (in my opinion) been socially awkward, and not so good at being a "student" of life. I'm used to calendars, schedules, lesson plans, books, Straight As and perfectionism, which "real" life (and a newborn) has no room for apparently. Thus, I figured that it was time to get this blog started again and share this new path I am traveling on.
Enjoy!
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